Gratefulness in Difficult Times

Last time I blogged, in September, I wrote to you about finally seeing the fruits of my co-laboring with God to accomplish goals He gave me since surrendering my life completely to Him in the summer of 1998.”  It felt great to know that the good and the bad all had a meaningful purpose in my life.  But, since then, I have been experiencing much doubt and consternation.  It’s been like treading, mentally, through murky water or slowly  moving in a swamp of doubt and confusion.

Have you ever felt like this?  Have you had ups and downs, but things are turning out mostly well or not, in your life, and then you have a change of mood or circumstances?  It can be very discouraging, to say the least.  Don’t fret!  I want you to know that it will not last forever! If you keep your eye on the end goal and not give up, you will reap what you sow, especially when you work for the good of others.

In times like this it’s very hard for me to see the good things in my life, but especially, be thankful.  I am a “glass half empty” kind of gal by nature.  When I’m feeling down or depressed because of certain circumstances my natural reaction is to look at what is not going well.  But, I’m not called to stay in my feelings, as a woman of faith.  I’m called to be steadfast and not give in to all I’m feeling in the heat of the moment.  I’m challenged to move from the natural to the supernatural through the power of God, in Christ.

If you recall, the word I chose for the year was steadfast.  In the last two months of my life many things have happened that have been discouraging.  If I had let my natural reaction to rule my actions, there would’ve have been very detrimental consequences to my immediate family, and consequently to some of my extended family.  But, through the power of forgiveness and God’s love in my life, my family and I are overcoming this obstacle!

Here’s the definition of Steadfast by Merriam-Webster:

Definition of steadfast. 1a : firmly fixed in place : immovable. b : not subject to change the steadfast doctrine of original sin— Ellen Glasgow. 2 : firm in belief, determination, or adherence : loyal her followers have remained steadfast.


Instead of sharing all the negative events or thoughts I had (that didn’t even happen), or telling you of the disappointing news I received, I want to share some more positive events that recently took place.  By doing so, you will hopefully be encouraged to not give in to the fears and pressures you perceive, but might not even be true.  And, if one or more of your fears do come true, I pray that you still come out ahead, as a victor, instead of a victim by choosing the better reaction.  I hope to inspire you to keep moving forward, even if it feels like you’re barely moving, and follow your goals or dreams for a healthier and more empowering lifestyle.

“9 So we must not get tired of doing good, for we will reap at the proper time if we don’t give up. 10 Therefore, as we have opportunity, we must work for the good of all, especially for those who belong to the household of faith.” (Galatians 6:9-10)

If you want to make a positive difference in the lives of those around you, you mustn’t let disappointment, doubt or fear of the unknown rule your thought life.  Your actions begin in your mind.  What you think will determine what you believe.  What you believe will determine what you do.  And, what you do will not only affect you, but those that you love, and love you.

I know that if I stay in my doubt, negativity or fear of what could be, I will not be successful at moving forward with any of the plans that I believe (with a little less doubt) to be God’s will for my life.  Faith or no faith, it wouldn’t be prudent of me to do so.  Would it?  Despite my good or bad circumstances I’m called to keep my eye on the prize and keep sharing the Love of Christ with you and those in my circle of influence!

Most things worth doing are not going to be easy.  It most definitely hasn’t been easy for me.  What I’m doing through my new nonprofit, TLC Squared, hasn’t been easy, to say the least, but it has been worth it because the main ministry initiative, (COMH-Unity) Support Group, helps families by giving moms with postpartum / postnatal depression the hope of recovery and a place to feel loved and accepted!

Since September of 2018, I’m thankful that I was able to host two Tea ‘n Talks:

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Tea ‘n Talk at Natural Grocers of Littleton, CO

Monthly Ladies TIME-Outs:

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November Ladies TIME-Out – Thanksgiving Fellowship

And finally, I’m thankful for the first Confessions of a Mother’s Heart (COMH-Unity) Support Group Fall Kick-off and Meet and Greet!


For the moment, I am not feeling or doubting (too much) the desires of my heart.  I’m feeling very grateful!  But, I know that I can’t trust in myself because my emotions could change at any given moment.  My hope is not in myself.  My hope is in the Lord who is able to do more than I could even imagine or hope for.  Tomorrow I might not feel like I can get through another wave of fear, doubt or disappointing news.  But today, and every day, I aim to choose to believe in the one who holds my future and sees the big picture.  And, if I don’t give up on Him or the plans He has for me, God promises that the efforts I put forth, to help others in His name, will not go unnoticed or be in vain.  So, I chose to be thankful in ALL circumstances!  Will you?

Give thanks in everything, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”
(1 Thessalonians 5:17, HCSB)

What difficult circumstances do you find yourself in today? 

Can you see anything;  anything positive at all?  Hold on to that!

Don’t give in to all your fears!  Give your fears, thoughts, and heart to the one who has the power to renew and restore your situation for the better, if it’s in His good will.

Happy Thanksgiving!

(To learn more about how to give your fears, doubts and life to God, in Christ, visit from the comfort of your phone or home computer today!)

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Labor of Love

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Inside of St. Patrick’s Cathedral

Every month that I don’t post a blog I feel horrible.  I want to tell you how I’m doing and show you how big God is, in a through my life!  He is bigger than you and I can imagine!  But, life as a mom is busy, to say the least.  To genuinely love my family and friends, host monthly “Ladies TIME-Outs”, Tea ‘n Talks (see pics below), and run my household in the summer/harvest season makes it almost impossible to do that, and do it well.

However, I am committed to making sure I share almost everything that goes on in my heart for the glory of God, so I will be posting, but only as I am able to, as I mentioned in previous blogs.

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St. Patrick’s Cathedral in Dublin, Ireland

Before going to Ireland at the end of July to celebrate my birthday and twenty years of marriage, I quickly wrote down the reflections of my heart in the hopes that I would get it out to you before I left.  But, as life doesn’t stop for anyone, I wasn’t able to get this out and published in time.  But, I feel the need to get it out now because I have so much more to tell you that has happened since then, and I don’t want there to be any gaps in my story.  So, without further ado, here are my “Confessions of a Mother’s Heart” blog notes from 7-21-18:

Can YOU relate?

It’s the middle of July already!  You wake up daily, trying to glorify your maker, but struggle against your own flesh and unexpected situations happen to get you down, mentally and physically.

But, you get back up again, by the grace of God, who is your strength.  His Spirit empowers you every time you earnestly seek God’s kingdom.

You try your best, but that’s never enough.  Thankfully, you have come to accept that you can’t fully rely on your own talents or gifts that He’s given you, but on the power of His words to renew you daily, instead.

I’m at a point this year where I’m finally seeing the fruits of my co-laboring with God to accomplish goals He gave me since surrendering my life completely to Him in the summer of 1998.

This week, Lord willing, I will be getting to go to a beautiful country where St. Patrick was first taken to as child labor, against his will. Ireland!

St. Patrick might not have aspired to be a child slave.  But, what others intended for selfish gain, God would turn into the catalyst that would put him exactly where he needed to be; under the amount of pressure St. Patrick needed in order for God to stir his heart and direct him back to fulfill his purpose and passion for the rest of his life.

Unlike St. Patrick, I did not experience life as a child slave.  Instead, I was able to grow up in a relatively healthy and happy home and then chose to get married, but before becoming a child of God.  My husband and I grew up in Christian homes, but were not born again, yet, when we got married.  As our marriage progressed in the first year, I fought against the new norm to love my husband well.  About a year and a half after getting married, my husband and I would both end up surrendering our lives to Christ and were baptized together in the ocean in the West Coast.  You’ll hear more about how this came to be in a future post, hopefully.

Years later I would experience severe Postpartum Depression and Anxiety after giving birth to my third child.  But, in all the pressures of those years, the last 20 and half years, to be exact, God has worked in and through me to produce a harvest I could never have accomplished on my own, or even with any mentor or life coach.

This week, while in Ireland, I will also be celebrating my forty-fourth birthday, twentieth wedding anniversary, and the publication of my first book, which was birthed as a result of my family’s first and only year in New Jersey in 2015.

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So, I want to ask you the same question again.  Can YOU relate?

Can you identify places in your life where you have been put in places of pressure, either by your own choices or by external consequences you didn’t necessarily have much control over?

How did you handle them?

If you have found yourself there, did you lean on yourself or someone else?  Who?

IF you can’t relate, do you want to relate?  Do you want God to use your “not so clean or ideal” situations for a greater purpose?  Then surrender your whole life to Him right where you are.  Call on Him!  He will not turn you away, if you truly mean it.

“My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.” (Psalm 51:17, NIV)

He’ll give you rest and redirect you onto the path He has for you, just as He did for St. Patrick.

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“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”  (Matthew 11:28-30, NIV)

Search for a local church in your community that is Bible based and get plugged in!

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.  In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.  Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil.  It shall be health to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones.  (Proverbs 3:5-8, KJV)

Check out the ministry work God has developed as a result of His faithfulness in my family’s life at through Confessions of a Mother’s Heart.

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New Confessions of a Mother’s Heart Book! Volume 1

Buy the new book for yourself and one for a friend!  By doing so you’ll be supporting this ministry and helping to “Re-create Homes One Family at a Time via Teaching, Loving and Connecting Families”!  All proceeds go towards funding the ministry.

Learn more about the upcoming events and Confessions of a Mother’s Heart (COMH-Unity) Support Groups here!

I will be writing to you again as soon as I’m inspired and able!

To God be the glory!

Socorro Gill

I want to support TLC Squared!

Years in the Making

Two years ago my family and I were getting ready to leave our “extended stay vacation” home in Warren, New Jersey, as I liked to call it.  Click here for more photos: July 4th, 2016.  Visit the post from the beginning of this blog!

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Today, we are back home in Littleton, Colorado.  We are getting ready to launch a very exciting TLC Squared initiative, Confessions of a Mother’s Heart (COMH-Unity) Support Group(s) this fall.  HCK Contents Sample 1

In conjunction with COMH-Unity groups I’m also launching my first book, “Confessions of a Mother’s Heart – Blogs, Volume 1”, which will be placed in a limited number of Home Care Kits every year.


The book will be coming out in the next month or so and will be available through Amazon.  Be on the lookout for my next blog post with more details.

What have you been up to?  Have any exciting move coming up that will also be life changing?  I would love to hear about it!

Hope you are having a safe and memorable July 4th Holiday.  Enjoy the freedom we have in America responsibly!

Until next time,


What’s up with me and TLC Squared?

Wow, it’s been too long since I have written to you!  So, “what’s up” with me and TLC Squared?

Here is a bullet list of what’s been going on since I last wrote to you in February:

  • I was very busily finishing our homeschooling for the year.  My oldest daughter finished 10th grade, my middle daughter completed 7th and my youngest ended her elementary years in 5th!  This year all my girls were able to participate in International Towne together.  That was a very intense experience!

We had to prepare for the one day event many weeks before.  After all was said and done, even though none of them were very enthusiastic about doing it, we all enjoyed the day very much.  They all commented that they would do it all over again, knowing what to expect now!

I can confidently say that my girls finished school “best in their class”!  But, they are the only students in their class ;-).

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We had a great turnout for our first event, thankfully.  There were a little over fifty people!

  • On May 4th, just a night before our big event, our family dog, Ezra was showing signs of illness.  He was vomiting a lot and not eating at all, which is NOT normal for this big guy.  We naturally became concerned about him.  So, the next day, the morning of an already busy day, my husband, Troy took him to the vet very early.  Ezra had swallowed too much his favorite toy (leather football) and he ended up getting a lot of it stuck in his stomach.  Talk about an emotional roller coaster!  While the luncheon was going on my husband was giving me updates in between the silent auction and lunch.

We did finally figure out how we could pay for his very costly surgery, temporarily, and save his life.  But, it was at the cost of our three girls’ college funds.  So, here is the link to the GOFUNDME page IF you want to help them restore it.  They all willingly said yes to using their money to give Ezra a second chance at life with them.  Our dog is also a family member and nobody, especially our girls, wanted to see him die this soon.  He’s only 5 years old.

Here are our girls pictured with Ezra when we first adopted him in June of 2013.

Here is Ezra after coming home from his surgery after May 6th, 2018 .


  • Two weeks after the luncheon I produced another Facebook live event which talks about what I learned and a little bit of what Dr. Stephen M. Scott, Associate Professor, Ob/Gyn & OB Health at Colorado University School of Medicine shared at the event.  This video helps the viewer identify what Postpartum Depression and Anxiety are and where to get help, if needed.  Please watch and share it with anyone you know or suspect might need it!
  • The last thing that I have been working on, as much as possible, is my first book.  I’m still putting on the finishing touches and I hope to have it self-published and made readily available for purchase by July 4th!

I can’t make any promises as to when I will write again, but my hope is that it will be in the next month.  I have come to realize that I cannot do everything I want to do.  I must do what is most important for my God and my family.  That means that I must make sure my family has what they need to live, like clean laundry, some healthier meals, and a mostly mentally and physically healthy and sound Mama!  My husband has been very supportive of my endeavors, but I must not test him too much. He deserves better!

I want to give my girls a healthier model of what it means to be a Christian  woman, mom and supportive wife to their dad, while trying to pursue my (God given) hearts desire’s to love and serve others, not only my immediate family.   I let my girls to see me mad, sad and very glad…Well I don’t always have Christ-like self-control.

I want my girls to see that life in this world is not going to give you the perfect conditions in which to live, but God has made it possible to live in this world with the hope that whatever is happening, as the result of my own fault or of any hard work I produce, He will work it all together for my good (Romans 8:28).

Here is a list of my reflections, frustrations and Confessions of a Mother’s Heart from the last few months:

  • I’m thinking “This is too hard!”, but I must remain Steadfast…
  • In response to contacting local churches to come and be a part of the first ever TLC Squared event, “Why isn’t anyone responding yet?  Don’t they know that there are so many families affected by perinatal mood disorders?  Don’t they know how much I want to help?  This is so discouraging!”, but I must remain Steadfast…
  • “I must keep our home running as smooth as possible”; wash the dishes, do the laundry, feed the family, contact churches, promote event, REPEAT!  I must stay healthy, mentally and physically…this is sooo hard!”…but I must remain Steadfast…
  • Finally, it seems like it’s raining too much, but not physical rain.  Maybe I shouldn’t be pursuing so much outside my home duties?  Maybe no one really cares and I’m wasting my time…NO, I must remain Steadfast…this too will soon pass!

I will leave you with these words from my favorite book, the Bible:

Jesus is speaking here, “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33 NIV, emphasis added)

“For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory” (2 Corinthians 4:17 KJV);

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”James 1:2-4 [Full Chapter]


My word for the year has definitely been tested!  So, I must remain steadfast if I want to leave a legacy…but it’s going to take some blood, sweat and tears!

In the meantime though, I’m going to try to not worry and enjoy the summer with as many outdoor excursions and family making memories as providence allows.
SO, go out and try to do the same because we are not promised tomorrow, only the “present”…open it up and make the most of it!
How have you been doing? 
DOES ANY of this resonate with you!  Please let me know! 
I really do want to know how you are doing.
Socorro Gill

Steadfast in 2018

Have you kept your New Year’s resolutions?

I have trouble making New Year’s resolutions, especially at the beginning of the year.

Sometimes it feels like I want to have one only because the whole world is talking about it.  But, I don’t want to just do something because everyone else is doing it.  I want to intentionally set my mind, heart, and body on something past the beginning of the year, into something that is eternal, not just temporal.  Nonetheless, I have had plenty opportunities in the last month and a half to meditate on being even more intentional, not only with my home and family, but with my non-profit ministry, TLC Squared.

One of the many things circulating on social media and among my family and friends has been of having a “word” that would lead or guide you throughout the coming year.  I guess the idea is to pick the first letter of your first name and come up with something significant.  I didn’t think much about it until a friend on Facebook posted a challenge to do this.  From then on, it stuck with me!

I came up with several words that might work.  One was “silly” because I like to be silly.  But, that wasn’t a “strong” word.  I will spare you the rest of them, save one.  Steadfast is final the word that came to mind at the beginning of 2018, to be my focus word for the year.

According to the definitions of Stedfast are:

1.  fixed in direction; steadily directed: a steadfast gaze.

2.  firm in purpose, resolution, faith, attachment, etc., as a person: a steadfast friend.

3.  unwavering, as resolution, faith, adherence, etc.
4.  firmly established, as an institution or a state of affairs.
5.  firmly fixed in place or position.


I was certain that steadfast was the word for me when I heard it spoken and then read it for myself from the bible.

“God, create a clean heart for me
and renew a steadfast[a] spirit within me.”  (Psalm 51:10, HCSB)

Another very encouraging verse I read was:

“Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, for as much as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.

I had never thought about doing this before.  I also had never thought I would need to be more intentional than I already am, especially in my family life.”  (1 Corinthians 15:58)

I have had good days and not so good days since the beginning of 2018.  But, since I wrote to you last I have been able to continue moving forward with TLC Squared.  Last time I wrote to you I had promised to tell you about the new ministry.  So, here are some of the happenings of the family organization:

  1. I have a date for our first fundraiser and silent auction (May 5th);
  2. I’m finalizing the book of blogs that will be published in the spring of 2018, for the Home Care Kits;
  3. TLC Squared was featured in a Missions Ministry Fair at our local church in the Denver area.  This allowed TLC Squared to be made more known to our own church congregation and other local ministries;
  4. Previous to last month, I have been recruiting willing and able women and even two of my own children to make items for the HCKs like handmade bibs, burp cloths and knitted beanies for the newborns.

Confessions of a Mother’s Heart is about EVERYTHING that is on my heart concerning Faith, Family, Food and Fun!  In the next few blogs I hope to not only continue sharing with you how my faith in God is moving the non-profit, but also about the Valentine’s and Easter holidays, and my family’s traditions.  Be on the lookout for those in the next couple or three weeks.

I would love to hear if YOU chose a word for the year OR if you are trying to be more intentional in your daily walk.  Leave a comment at your leisure!

“Let your steadfast love, O Lord, be upon us, even as we hope in you.” (Psalm 33:22, ESV)

How can you be steadfast in 2018?  Have you kept one or some of your New Year’s resolutions?  I would love to hear how you are doing!

Socorro Gill

2017 Reflections

Happy New Year!

When I last wrote to you, I had accomplished one of my main 2017 goals by starting and then telling you about the new nonprofit organization, TLC Squared.

Now I’m going to try to explain how scared I was of even moving forward with it and how it is surprisingly moving along.

In 2016 I was not very confident in what God was speaking into my heart.  I had many doubts.

“Will this work out? Will my husband be on the same page as me and my vision for this ministry?  Will there be ANY women interested in coming along side to work towards the common goal that is commanded in Titus 2:5-8?  Where is the seed fund for this ministry coming from?  How will I ever do this well while raising our three growing girls and educating them from our home base?
 And, on and on the list continued.

Despite these fears and doubts, I felt supernaturally empowered and confident in my God, who is greater than all these things, to believe He has a plan for TLC Squared and the ministry initiatives already occurring ( Tea ‘n Talk, Ladies Time-Out , Confessions of a Mother’s Heart and the Home Care Kits for women and new babies).

How could I, a mostly unimportant, stay-at-home, postpartum depression recovered, home educating mom ever do this?  I might not be very confident in what my place is in this world or of the ever changing political, social, and economic status of this country, but I am most passionately convinced of the one constant in my life; the one true and Living Word of God, Jesus Christ!

There was only one way TLC Squared Ministries could take off and make a difference in the local community and prayerfully, in the world.  That was through the power of the living, breathing and active Word of a loving God’s Spirit!

“Heaven and earth shall pass away, but my words shall not pass away.”
Matthew 24:35 KJV

I don’t believe in myself, my abilities, or disabilities to make an eternal difference in people’s lives.  I NEED something or someone bigger than me to believe in, in order to accomplish something supernatural.  I chose to believe that God is bigger than my fears and doubts!  I chose to believe in the unchanging Word that helps keep me focused, especially when I’m feeling weak in flesh and spirit.
As a result of God’s faithfulness and my beliefs, I moved forward with telling others about my vision for TLC Squared, starting with our church family pastor and other leaders in my family’s circle of influence.  It was encouraging to receive positive feedback.  Because of these meetings last spring, my husband and I took the next step and created business cards, opened the business bank account, have a post office box and all the other trappings of getting this venture going.  BUT, I didn’t just rely on other people’s feedback to keep us going; I also relied on specific bible verses.  Here are a few:

“Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.”
Colossians 3:2 KJV

“All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.”
2 Timothy 3:16-17 KJV

“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge:  but fools despise wisdom and instruction.”
Proverbs 1:7 KJV

At TLC Squared our goal is to fulfill the Titus 2:5-8 command and to share the Love of Christ in order to ”Re-create Homes One Family at a Time via Teaching, Loving and Connecting” people.

So what is next for TLC Squared?  Only God knows, but for now I can say that I’m looking forward to continuing to lead monthly Ladies Time-Out’s; presenting Tea ‘n Talks at Natural Grocers, Senior Centers and mom’s groups; handing out Home Care Kits this spring; and hosting Confessions of a Mother’s Heart Ministry events as part of my personal ministry, in Denver, CO beginning this fall.

If this is something you would like to get involved with, please let me know.  I’m building a team of women who have a heart for helping families grow strong in Christ by fulfilling the Titus 2:5-8 command.  I would love to hear how you can come along side this new ministry to families.  Go to and contact me to set up a time to talk!

Would you consider giving a one-time financial gift to the seed fund?  Go to to donate!

Next month I plan on giving you more details on the growth and happenings of this ministry and sharing some insights for living as a woman of God in 2018.

What did you do last year to make a difference in your family, friendships or community that you are continuing to build upon in 2018?

Being mindful of God’s truth’s,

Socorro Gill

Waiting in Expectation

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It’s been about 5 months since I have last written to you, so I thought I would throw you a line to get you all up to date on how one of my “2017 Resolutions” we’re doing.

Since May, my three daughters have all turned their next ages, 10, 12 and 15!  We’ve experienced more ups and downs, but are stronger for them.  I have also been busily at work building up the TLC Squared Ministries Team (Sewing and Advisory Teams mostly) and helping my husband raise our children through home schooling!

I’ve been waiting in expectation of what God first conceived in my heart while in California, when my kids were little, but especially more recently while residing in New Jersey.

What you are about to read is just one of the platforms on which this new Colorado Nonprofit is founded on, but a very powerful one…

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Waiting in Expectation

It’s been about 5 months since I have last written to you, so I thought I would throw you a line to get you all up to date on how one of my “2017 Resolutions” we’re doing.

Since May, my three daughters have all turned their next ages, 10, 12 and 15!  We’ve experienced more ups and downs, but are stronger for them.  I have also been busily at work building up the TLC Squared Ministries Team (Sewing and Advisory Teams mostly) and helping my husband raise our children through home schooling!

I’ve been waiting in expectation of what God first conceived in my heart while in California, when my kids were little, but especially more recently while residing in New Jersey.

What you are about to read is just one of the platforms on which this new Colorado Nonprofit is founded on, but a very powerful one…

“For the last 8 years my husband and I have tried to have a fourth child, off and on.  After about 2 years, I think, I just gave up. It was too disappointing to check myself each month to see if I was ovulating or not and then waiting every month, only to be let down.  I was also experiencing symptoms of postpartum, but didn’t want to deal with it because I was ashamed.

About 6 months after I had my third daughter I began experiencing severe mood swings.  I would go from being perfectly content, even laughing, to crying for the smallest thing.  I would also experience moments of rage where I would blow up at my children when they didn’t listen to me and do what I asked of them several times.

When my husband would come home from work, usually after the girls and I had already eaten dinner, I would confess to him what had happened.  I went as far as to have suicidal thoughts, and worse than that, of possibly taking my children’s lives.  I knew that was not good, but felt out of control.

If I didn’t change soon, I could’ve been one of those cases of “mom drowns her kids in the bathtub” on the local evening news.  I was desperate to get help, but was afraid to tell anyone else, other than my husband.

I finally cried out to God and he sent a Godly woman that would watch my girls just so I could go out by myself and collect my thoughts, and get some exercise, which I knew I needed in order to start my recovery process.  Because of my mental and physical state, I had asked God to not let me get pregnant again, if I was going to feel like I was going to lose my mind and possibly hurt myself or my three girls. 

So, my guess has been that the reason why we haven’t had another child of our own, since then is because that might have just happened.  I’ve always believed that.  But, I have hope that it might not be the case because if we do ever, by some miracle, have another child, I will trust God to get me through whatever comes my way.
After diagnosing myself and confirming with my doctor, I realized I was experiencing a severe case of Postpartum Depression.”  

To read the rest of the story click here!  But before you do that, please continue below to read about the new ministry!

Even though we have not had a fourth child, God is allowing my husband and I to birth a new kind of life, a family based ministry, TLC Squared.

At TLC Squared we endeavor to strengthen families by sharing The Love of Christ through: Teaching, Loving and Connecting .

We are in the infancy stages, but growing steadily, with the Lords direction and other faithful and passionate volunteers to support this ministry.

We already have a sewing team of 12 women to sew bibs and burp cloths for the Home Care Kits and an Advisory team to help make the vision move ahead.

My husband and I are working with several leaders in our home church and community to reach families with a message of hope, starting in the Denver, Colorado area.

In the next 3 months I hope to give you more opportunities to come along side of this new, but needed home based family ministry and tell you more about how close TLC Squared is to launching the following Ministries: Confessions of a Mother’s Heart and Home Care Kits in Fall of 2018.  In the meantime, you can read more about it here!

For now, there are at least two planned fundraisers;  One for this coming October in California and another for the Spring of 2018 in Colorado!

How can you help?

Glad you asked!

We would love it if you would seriously consider how much you can give to TLC Squared to help build a seed fund and grow the ministry! No amount is too small!

TLC Squared Ministries is receiving Tax deductible donations in partnership through the Association of Christian Nonprofits.  To learn more about them click here !

Please don’t hesitate to ask any questions!

Are you ready to be a part of this ministry?  Join us!!

Waiting in Expectation,



Have you heard of “mindfulness”? 

I was first introduced to the concept of mindfulness last year (2016) in New Jersey.  It was a part of a series of personal phone coaching sessions required by our health insurance, through Troy’s company, in order to receive a special discount.

Last year around the same time in the spring I was experiencing the physical ramifications of spiritual and emotional turmoil as a result of sin in my life.  It wasn’t a coincidence to me that while this coaching session was meant to make me mindful of my food choices and eating habits, God was using it to make me more aware of my spiritual temperature and spiritual habits.

Here are my notes on the Mindfulness Coaching Session:

Goal: To make healthy eating choices and give us all the nutrients we need to repair our body and restore it (

  1. Being Mindful” – It’s thinking about what you’re doing versus mindless (becoming self-aware).
  • Have “healthy choices” readily available
  • Don’t bring unhealthy choices into your home
  • Have other alternatives, which are not as bad, then eliminate those eventually.
  • Discussed food groups: Bake or Broil, or BBQ your meat to allow fat to drip off.
  1. Create a home exercise plan
    • Think about activity you’re doing and how many minutes it takes to do those things.
  2. Moment to pause – To become aware of your “breathing”; helps your mind to be in tune to what your body is doing.
    • Be mindful” of the whole foods versus processed food you eat.

Writing the notes I started realizing what God was speaking to me personally.  Just as I was told to take in more whole physical foods, I came to the conclusion I needed to spend even more time in the pure Word of God, instead of participating in mostly topical bible studies.

These are some of the questions that I began to ask myself:

  1. Am I spending time in “quiet” time to focus on breathing deeply, listening to the “breath” or Spirit of God?


  1. Am I in tune with God’s Spirit as much as I am “tuned in” to the physical world?


  1. What one thing can I do today to be more spiritually in tune with God?


I told myself, “Work on at least one new thing a week until you are fully aware of your need for, not only physical food, but the Word of God to feed your soul!

I ended my notes by writing, “Here we are as Americans focusing on what we eat physically.  But, are we as Christians, which we should focus on being first, being more mindful of what we our spiritual diet actually is?”

(End of notes)

It was easy to admit that my dietary choices weren’t always the best, but it was eye opening to apply the Mindfulness principle to what God was convicting me about.  It made me more aware of how much God loves me.

If I hadn’t taken the time to listen to God’s voice in the midst of this mundane and required coaching session for my physical well-being, I might have missed what He had for me to “digest” and get nutrition for my soul, which will last longer than my physical body.

Today, as I write this and share my heart with you, it’s my desire that you too will take a moment to be mindful of what God is speaking into your heart.  While driving to and from your home or playing at the park, be mindful!

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I had a very rough month since I wrote to you last.  You will hear more about it as the wounds heal and as people are ready to share.  In the meantime I wanted to give you something to chew on (pun intended!) so that you, like me, may have the courage to share hard things with others when it is more difficult.  What draws others to God in us is not the accusatory remarks, but the extended arms of love and acceptance. God draws people to himself through the sacrifice of His Son, Jesus, dying on the cross for us.

“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me’.” (2 Corinthians 12:9, NIV)


It is my hope that you may see God in my family and me, not because it sometimes looks like we may have any “easy” life, but because in the midst of our struggles we hang on to God with all our strength.  This is the time to be mindful of the promises of God.

So whatever you are going through right now, devastating news of a loved one with cancer, shocking news of abuse in the family, or the unexpected divorce of an unexpected couple, hang on to God’s promises because they will never let you down!

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When life gives you manure and dirt, give it back to God so he may place it in the garden of your heart’s home, where through the breath of His spirit, you may experience true life, and grow deep and rooted in His love, and eventually bear the fruit of His love for you and your love for others.

Being mindful of God’s truth’s,

Socorro Gill

After the Fall and Winter…Spring!

I just love this time of year.  Dormant things are coming back to life!  What once was asleep is returning to its glory.

Have you ever thought about what makes spring so new and beautiful?

Back in the fall of 2016 my daughters and I planted tulips and other bulbs in our front yard, in the hopes that by some miracle we would see the green sprouts, then the colorful blooms.  We put in almost a full day’s labor in the fall just to be able to enjoy the newness of spring and put winter behind us.

Winter is not my favorite time of year!   But, without it, there would be no spring.

What makes spring so beautiful for me is that I get to go for walks without the freezing effect of winter.  The sun is higher in the sky, so the sunrise is even more vivid; full of pinks, purples and whites, if the clouds are just right.  The days are warmer, but the nights are still cool, in anticipation of the soon to arrive summer heat.  All in all, it’s a time of year in which many people, especially I, look forward to.

Spring in New Jersey is similar to spring in Colorado in that to grow luscious and healthy plants you need good, rich soil.  The soil has to be full of nutrients to feed the plant that has sprouted from the seed that was just planted or the dormant plant is returning to life.  Of course you also need a healthy amount of water and many sunny days.


On my regular winter morning walks in New Jersey I saw a particular pile of compost along the side of the person’s home in my neighborhood that started as dead leaves, mixed with other debris and natural materials.  I saw it day after day, just sitting there doing nothing but decomposing.  It was started in the fall, using fallen leaves.  But in the spring the pile was not just fallen leaves, it was mixed with water from the winter snow and early spring rains, and debris from the surrounding neighborhood.  In the spring I walked by the same pile and sometimes I would see steam coming off of it, until the pile eventually looked ready to be used as compost for spring gardening.  I imagined it was going to be the beginning of some of their best soil to use for growing a garden.

Watching the process of my neighbor’s compost pile reminded me of how God can use our fallen and troubling times to build a better relationship with us, and to help others see hope during difficult seasons of life.  If we give our troubles and worries to God, He can compost them and add it to the soil of our hearts, so He may plant seeds to grow a great spiritual harvest.

The once dark times in a person’s life can be the very fuel that builds in them the strength and desire to move into a more fulfilling, rooted and anchored chapter in their lives.  It can lead them to walk to a “springboard” by which to take the leap of faith that God has wanted them to jump off of, so He could catch them!

Living in New Jersey for about 16 months was the place God led me to move further on the springboard that I had been climbing on and off of without jumping.

As recently as the spring of 2015 I took a significant leap by setting up a website to encourage women, especially moms ( Even before that I was led to create a website to minister to my relatives, along with a newsletter, laying out the Gospel (I let it go and lost it).  It was during the time between the creations of the two websites that I was going through a time of producing my “compost”.  That in turn has been fueling me for what I did in 2015 and very soon to enable my family and I to grow our ministry to families in the Church and outside of it.

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God has been allowing me to see what my “compost” was since I gave my life to Him.  But, I couldn’t do anything with it on my own.  I needed and will always need Him to give me good seeds to plant in the mixed soil of my heart.  I will always need His spirit to breathe life into my messes and stir things up, so they may move me into the place He wants me.  By the same power, His Spirit, like a spring rain, waters my soul to allow for the sprouting of the seed, which is the Living Word of God, to produce good fruit for others to take and see that the Lord is good.  If I give my troubles to Him, He will always make good compost for the soil, and the seeds He plants will bear fruit and accomplish what He wants in my life.

“As the rain and the snow
    come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
    without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
    so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
    It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire

    and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.” Isaiah 55:10-11

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As soon as the new ministry website is ready for the non-profit organization that God has allowed my husband and me to create, I will post the link.  Our hope and challenge to everyone reading this is that it will encourage you to give your “compost” to God.  If you’re willing to die to yourself, as a seed has to do in order to be born again, you too can see what beautiful blooms God will produce in and through you for His Kingdom.

“Seek the Lord while he may be found;
    call on him while he is near.
Let the wicked forsake their ways
    and the unrighteous their thoughts.
Let them turn to the Lord, and he will have mercy on them,

    and to our God, for he will freely pardon.” Isaiah 55:6-7


Seeking the Lord,

Socorro Gill