He is Strongest in my weakness…

I posted this blog just before my family and I moved to New Jersey.  I had been feeling like this, yet again, and thought it would be good for you to read this and know you are not alone. I pray you will continue to look up when you are feeling down. To quote Annie in the movie, “The sun will come out tomorrow, so you gotta hang on ’till tomorrow, come what may.”
God IS good!

confessions of a mother's heart

In the pressing matters of my upcoming move I have found myself very inadequate.  My spirit has been burdened with my lack of ability to meet up to my own expectations.  I have been down and depressed.  It doesn’t help that the day has been gloomy.

I should be packing, but I have been sewing bibs for baby showers of close friends, which I love dearly.  I turned the radio on and immersed myself in just enjoying the moment, to forget my pity party. But, in doing so, while listening to very uplifting Christian music, from Klove radio (Klove.com), I was reminded by God that He shines brightest when it is darkest, in my life.

(Light bulb moment, again!)

It really, sucks (excuse my frankness) to feel like we are not enough to meet our family’s needs, or our friends expectations sometimes, and especially our perceptions of God’s expectations…

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“A fool shows his annoyance at once, but a prudent man overlooks an insult”.

Ouch, that is truth that hurts, but ohhhhh how freeing it is!

How many times have I showed my annoyance at my children?  Too many times to count!  But thank God that his mercies are new everyday because I mess up a lot.

Don’t beat yourself up on this one moms.  Repent and reconcile yourself with God and your children. Look at why you’re feeling annoyed and ask yourself if it’s because you lack patience with them or if it’s something else.

If you lack patience, go back to God for help.  Love is patient according to the bible.  If we aren’t being patient, then we aren’t loving our children like we are called.  I have been guilty of this many times, and probably will be again, so I know that it’s hard.

If you ask your children for forgiveness then they can see that you do care, even though it doesn’t always appear that way.  Confess to them that it wasn’t right of you to be rude and annoyed at them. Admit that you’ve done wrong.  Dare to go as far as asking them to pray for you!  That will show that you value them.

One of my girls has actually made it a habit of praying for me on the spot!  It is humbling, but that is the God I want them to see; a God who is transparent and forgiving.  Jesus didn’t just die for one or one thousand of ours iniquities, He died for them all!! Praise God.

So, I leave you with this challenge for today, to examine yourself to see what is the cause of the annoyance of your heart.  Is it because you’re tired, hungry, feeling down about your current life situation or are you chronically ill? Then go to God and bow down, in your heart, and ask Him for forgiveness and wisdom to do better at loving your children and anyone else, for that matter.  Then get help from family or friends who you trust.  We aren’t meant to do this alone.
Be brave,

P.S. I wrote this post months ago, but I’m barely uploading it because it was hard to admit I am not perfect, to myself.  I want to show you my faults so that in turn, you, who are reading this can know that God already knows that and He loves you anyway.  So, if you don’t have a personal relationship with Him already, what are you waiting for?  He is at the door of your heart knocking to let Him in and lead you to a life of forgiveness and redemption!  Let Him In!  Go to http://www.peacewithgod.net to see the steps you can take to start walking with God through faith in Jesus Christ.  When you do that, please let me know so I can rejoice with you! 

Living History Museum – Home

(Above is a picture of my mom, to my left, and my godmother, her sister.  We took this shot in Santa Monica, CA while my girls and were visiting last year.)

This post will be on “exhibition” at my website in the “Motherhood” tab or section so you may enjoy and invite others to view at your leisure! Go to http://www.socorrogill.com/motherhood.html .

Have you ever been to a “Living History Museum”? I went to one, more recently; it was in Williamsburg, Virginia. The once bustling town, of the great American Revolution, is brought back to life by reenactors and the actual buildings of its past. I remember thinking how exciting it would be to be able to be there when the founders of our country talked about the vision they had for our country, to be set free from oppression and taxes of the King of England. Our family had a great time enjoying many of the activities they offered to make you feel like you were really there. We were enjoying the very blessings of their hard work. Before that, when our youngest was about one year old, we went to a town in California where one of the Gold Rush Town’s existed. My girls and I dressed ourselves in cute prairie aprons and bonnets, walked along the dusty dirt roads and panned for gold. It was nostalgic and so much fun!

In both of these places there were people dressed in time period, acting as if it was still the same year and day they were portraying. You got to see how they lived back then and it wasn’t always pretty. They had families to take care of, jobs to do and hopes and dreams for a better future. If we were really living in those times, would we be so happy to be there? Or would we wish things were different?

Today I want to give you something to think about by showing you my “Living History Museum”! I have an idea in my mind of how I would like to have my home run more efficiently, look nicer, feel more comfy and cozy, and especially smell more pleasant, or be less stinky (in odor and attitude).

But, as much as I try to keep my home peaceful, orderly and clean, it always has its way of getting disorganized and dirty all over again. And, the kids aren’t always happy doing what I’ve asked them to do (imagine that!). My husband doesn’t always come home at the “right time” for dinner, or agree with everything I have to say; or just what I would like him to say either (what’s up with that?!?) Just kidding.

Day after day I clean, try to reorganize, declutter, and correct my children in love, and thankfully wake up to another one of God’s mercies just to have to do it all over again in a day or a week or even less (Ahhhh!).

Why do we as moms, or people for that matter, keep trying to do this?

Because we are intrinsically made by our creator, God, to need law, order and beauty in our lives; otherwise we wouldn’t have hope in anything ever being made right, like it was before sin entered into this world.

Today, if you are feeling stuck in the same “time period” in your living museum or home, remember that there are seasons in life, and they all come to pass. The bible promises that!

“There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heavens” Ecclesiastes 3:1

So, if you are like me right now, trying to keep your kids from hurting each other, doing yet another load of laundry, preparing something for dinner, but you’re not sure what; wondering if your husband will come home in time to eat dinner with the family or not, don’t give up!

Before we know it, this season of our lives will come to pass and we will be like the visitors of the “Living History Museums” in our day today, wishing we could live in that era and have those once so happy moments like “it used to be”, or as our memory fails us, how we used to remember them.

Don’t let the present and temporary pain, you’re experiencing now, blur your vision, hopes and dreams for the future of you and your family.

Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you.  Make level paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm.  Do not swerve to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.” Proverbs 4:25-27 

IF this is you and you want help, ask God to help you, and then talk with someone you trust and ask for prayer. IF you know of a bible study or woman’s group in your area, or at church, get plugged in and share your heart with others (without tearing down your husband or kids; you have to take responsibility for your actions too!)

Finally, if you are in my area, (currently Somerset County, New Jersey, USA) and would like to come to one of my “Mom Time-Out” gatherings or “Tea Time-Out”, email me from my website at http://www.socorrogill.com/faith—titus-2-ministry.html.

Please leave a comment if you were blessed by this post. I would love to know if you feel, or have felt the same before. Share some insight too, if you can!

In the trenches of life with you,

Socorro Gill

P.S. Are you a visitor, reenactor or the mom (God created you to be) in your home?

“Tea Time” with Socorro Gill

“Tea Time with Socorro Gill” is over for now and went better than expected! Somerset Hills Baptist Church (see more info at http://www.shbcfamily.org), in Basking Ridge, New Jersey had their annual VBS as usual and it was a success! There was something new happening the same week, though. With willing hearts, the pastor and VBS leaders took a risk by letting me start something new. They didn’t do it completely blind, I did present my ideas and outline on paper so they could at least have a better understanding of what they were going to be allowing me to teach. Previously, I had one-on-one time with several of the ladies from the church and as far as I know, they didn’t give any negative feedback. As the Lord leads more of them, I am continuing to meet and mentor them on an individual basis.

I believe they were not disappointed because I got several people commenting, in a surprising tone, how many ladies there were attending, which is more than double of what was originally predicted.

I believe it paid off! Hopefully, they will have this again next year even if my family and I are not in New Jersey, and return to Colorado, when the Vacation Bible School happens again.

I got to have “Tea Time” with as many as eleven ladies at a time, throughout the entire week while some of their children attended the activities. I only set up 8 chairs thinking that I might have too many, but God brought the souls of those needing spiritual refreshments from His Word. Food for the soul!

The consensus, from more than half of the ladies, was that they want more of it! I was very happy to hear that because it wasn’t just “Tea” that we had. I had planned for 3 of the 5 days to teach about salvation through faith in Christ, for those who didn’t know him, how to show children, by example, to love the Word of God, and how to love our husband in Christ. It was not easy stuff to swallow, but it was spiritual meat to chew on. Two of the three interactive handouts I gave them to follow along with me were as long as 8 pages, yet they came back day after day, as their schedule allowed. In essence, I created a curriculum for “VBS Tea Time” that other churches can use for their growth, once I make it available.

I got to share my heart from a woman of faith’s perspective; from the heart of someone who’s definitely not perfect, but has a perfect Savior, who is willing to use me to encourage other women in their faith journey, and by sharing my mistakes and victories, so they too can have hope in this life as well as the next!

I still don’t know everything that lies ahead for this ministry to women, but I will let you know as soon as the Lord reveals to me more of His will for my family and I.

However, there are a few things in the making, but I mustn’t say more until the time is right. It is very exciting and terrifying at the same time because I can only see with my finite eyes. But, I know I am not able to do anything of my own power and strength; I’m doing it in my weakness, so that He may be made stronger in my life.

Thanks to the Lord’s provision and my husband’s hard work out here in New Jersey, I am able to stay home and educate my girls and share my experiences with women who are willing to listen and be taught!  Thank you Troy!!! And, thank you God!!!!!!

In the Trenches of life with you,

Socorro Gill


Being In Tent-tional in Everything!

A in tent 06-15-15

As I was working on my website and updating some “new happenings”, my daughters were building for fun. I took pictures to send to myself for an upcoming talk I’m giving. As one of them read the email I was sending to myself, out loud, it occurred to me that it was a pun. So, I just had to share.
But, in all seriousness, I believe it’s important to be intentional in all my dealings in life. If not, I will lose sight of what really matters to me.
Hope this helps you today as you go about your daily life.

What are you leaving to “chance” by not being intentional in your choices for you or your kids?
Something to think about.

God Bless!
Socorro Gill
P.S. I have also updated my website to show the latest thing God is doing in my life through my home church in New Jersey. I would love for you to check it out when you have a free moment, and let me know what you think.  Go to http://www.socorrogill.com/faith—titus-2-ministry.html to see my new ministry page!

B in tent 06-15-15 “B – in- tent!”