Over the last week I have been struggling with something that has been robbing me of my joy.
I have been afraid to confront someone whom I have felt has not been honest with me about their intentions in a certain ministry area in our church. But, instead of telling them directly, I let it stew in my heart. When I still couldn’t tell them what was bothering me, because I didn’t want to confront them, I made a reactive accusation, through an email, in the hopes they would admit their bad intentions. Instead of it causing some reflection in their hearts, it backfired! We have met with the pastor of the church to deal with our differences, instead of dealing with it on our own first, as the bible instructs us to.
I should have examined myself to see if Christ was in me and then removed the plank out of my own eye first, so I could see more clearly what I had been trying to point out; that I thought the other person was at fault in something. In reality they hadn’t even realized they had done anything wrong against me, in their heart. It appeared to be a miscommunication on both our parts.
“Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Brother, let me take out the speck that is in your eye,’ when you yourself don’t see the log in your eye? Hypocrite! First take the log out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to take out the speck in your brother’s eye.” (Luke 6:42 HCSB)
If anyone reading this is facing something similar, I highly recommend that you examine yourself first to make sure there isn’t something in your life causing you to see others in the wrong light, before accusing or confronting them of a wrong doing.
Now that I’ve met with our pastor and the other individuals affected by my sin, I can only pray and hope that the other person can forgive me and peaceably resolve this issue so that our prayers are not hindered and God may be glorified by repentance in both our lives. We both made mistakes in not being very clear with each other; although I took a cheap shot out of my anger towards them; which I am not proud of.
Whether I feel I was wronged or the other person made a mistake, it shouldn’t matter as much as me being right before God. Again, I am not afraid to admit that I made two big mistakes; one, the mistake of not looking at myself first, and secondly, compounding it by not following the biblical command of going to that person first and causing more trouble for others to have to intervene.
It’s been said before, “Experience is the best teacher”, is it not? The key is to “learn” from our mistakes and not repeat them again.
What is robbing you of your joy today?
I pray you’ll take some time to examine yourself. “Test yourselves to see if you are in the faith. Examine yourselves. Or do you yourselves not recognize that Jesus Christ is in you?—unless you fail the test.” (2 Corinthians 13:5)
In the trenches of life with you,