The more I read the bible and the more I interact with different people in the secular and Christian realm, I see that God uses unlikely people to accomplish His purposes and lead His people in victory.
In a recent bible study at my church I read the story of Deborah, a prophetess and judge, who helped the Israelites fight against their enemy, the Canaanites (Judges 4 & 5) and win the battle. They had done what was evil in the Lords sight, so He sent them into the hand of the King of the Canaanites in order to encourage them to be in a place, in their heart, of repentance. Never mind that the Israelite’s had gotten themselves in this predicament because of their sin. Never the less, they finally cried out to Him and He did answer them. God was going to not only use one of His own people, a judge, but a married woman at that. It’s important to realize that the women of old were not as highly thought of, compared to present day women, in most countries.
For the bible to mention any woman being used to bring God’s people a victory is saying a lot! It’s only mentioned a few times in the bible. Deborah was an unlikely candidate because she was a housewife. But, because of her wisdom and faithfulness God used her!
Reading about Deborah inspired me to reflect on my daily walk of faith, yet again. It made me wonder if I am listening to God correctly or if I was making up my own desires. (“Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4)
I’m trying to figure out if God is using me where I am in my life, as a wife, mother and hopefully, a mentor (Titus 2:3-5).
After talking with my husband and praying I don’t have to wonder any more. I know God is using me, but not as I would like to see it, in numbers. But instead, as He wills it, through transformed lives!
Last night was the end of my “Mom Time-Out” gatherings in my home, since moving temporarily to New Jersey and starting the gatherings in September of 2015. After sending out bi-monthly emails to various women in my church; speaking to women from my local home school group and even the secular moms from my community, there didn’t seem to be as much interest in attending the gatherings, in my home, as I thought.
In the beginning there were up to a dozen women or more that sat down and heard my heart for loving our husbands and children and living a life fully surrendered to God. But, as time went by, I noticed these same ladies stopped coming and even stopped responding to my emails and conversations about it. There were a hand full of ladies I know for sure that were blessed by this ministry, in person and via the internet, and for that I am very grateful. But, not a single woman came last night and only one RSVP’d. In her defense, she had something else come up, last minute.
This broke my heart. I have been trying to figure out why this has happened. I have my own suspicions, but I may never really know.
All I do know, now, is that when things don’t appear to be going how I think they should or if I’m not getting the responses I would like, God is still in control. Through this and other experiences He is teaching me to remain teachable and steadfast in Him, through his Word and what I know from past experiences of His faithfulness in my life.
After pouring my heart out to my husband, at his request, because he saw that I was somewhat depressed, I have a fresh outlook and renewed sense of God’s presence in this trivial circumstance. It isn’t easy for me to speak to my husband about deep heart issues because he almost always wants to fix my problems, like most men. I knew that only God could give me a new outlook in this and every situation that “looks” grim to me. I love that Troy noticed that something was wrong, took the time (before work) to ask and especially that he shared loving and encouraging words so I would not give up reaching out to women, just because not all of them are responsive, so I reluctantly shared.
My husband’s listening ear was used by God to help me out of my “pity pool” sooner, rather than later, and see God’s sovereignty.
Thanks to my husband and the renewing of my mind, by the power of the Holy Spirit, I can see that regardless of how things look, I know that if I want to be used by God, in His timing, not mine, I need to have and maintain these basic character qualities:
- I must continue to trust God for His provision of what I need in ALL situations, especially those involving major decisions.
- “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.” (Proverbs 3:6, emphasis added)
- I must set my thoughts on God’s purpose , seek the kingdom of heaven and not worry about tomorrow in order to bring glory to God in my life.
- “Set your mind on things above, and not on earthly things.” (Colossians 3:2)
- So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Colossians 6:31-34)
3. I must develop a healthy fear of God, instead of fearing what people will think when attempting to boldly act in faith towards a goal.
- Deuteronomy 10:12 states, “And now, Israel, what does the Lord your God ask of you but to fear the Lord your God, to walk in obedience to him, to love him, to serve the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, 13 and to observe the Lord’s commands and decrees that I am giving you today for your own good?” (emphasis added)
I am graciously reminded often, by one of my precious daughters, to not give up when things get hard or when life throws us a curve ball. She really likes this verse and it always helps me stay focused on “things above”. I pray it also inspires you to do the same by praying, remaining teachable, opening up your bible and reading God’s faithful Word.
“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” (Galatians 6:9)
(All bible references were taken from www.biblegateway.com NIV)