Waiting in Expectation

It’s been about 5 months since I have last written to you, so I thought I would throw you a line to get you all up to date on how one of my “2017 Resolutions” we’re doing.

Since May, my three daughters have all turned their next ages, 10, 12 and 15!  We’ve experienced more ups and downs, but are stronger for them.  I have also been busily at work building up the TLC Squared Ministries Team (Sewing and Advisory Teams mostly) and helping my husband raise our children through home schooling!

I’ve been waiting in expectation of what God first conceived in my heart while in California, when my kids were little, but especially more recently while residing in New Jersey.

What you are about to read is just one of the platforms on which this new Colorado Nonprofit is founded on, but a very powerful one…

“For the last 8 years my husband and I have tried to have a fourth child, off and on.  After about 2 years, I think, I just gave up. It was too disappointing to check myself each month to see if I was ovulating or not and then waiting every month, only to be let down.  I was also experiencing symptoms of postpartum, but didn’t want to deal with it because I was ashamed.

About 6 months after I had my third daughter I began experiencing severe mood swings.  I would go from being perfectly content, even laughing, to crying for the smallest thing.  I would also experience moments of rage where I would blow up at my children when they didn’t listen to me and do what I asked of them several times.

When my husband would come home from work, usually after the girls and I had already eaten dinner, I would confess to him what had happened.  I went as far as to have suicidal thoughts, and worse than that, of possibly taking my children’s lives.  I knew that was not good, but felt out of control.

If I didn’t change soon, I could’ve been one of those cases of “mom drowns her kids in the bathtub” on the local evening news.  I was desperate to get help, but was afraid to tell anyone else, other than my husband.

I finally cried out to God and he sent a Godly woman that would watch my girls just so I could go out by myself and collect my thoughts, and get some exercise, which I knew I needed in order to start my recovery process.  Because of my mental and physical state, I had asked God to not let me get pregnant again, if I was going to feel like I was going to lose my mind and possibly hurt myself or my three girls. 

So, my guess has been that the reason why we haven’t had another child of our own, since then is because that might have just happened.  I’ve always believed that.  But, I have hope that it might not be the case because if we do ever, by some miracle, have another child, I will trust God to get me through whatever comes my way.
After diagnosing myself and confirming with my doctor, I realized I was experiencing a severe case of Postpartum Depression.”  

To read the rest of the story click here!  But before you do that, please continue below to read about the new ministry!

Even though we have not had a fourth child, God is allowing my husband and I to birth a new kind of life, a family based ministry, TLC Squared.

At TLC Squared we endeavor to strengthen families by sharing The Love of Christ through: Teaching, Loving and Connecting .

We are in the infancy stages, but growing steadily, with the Lords direction and other faithful and passionate volunteers to support this ministry.

We already have a sewing team of 12 women to sew bibs and burp cloths for the Home Care Kits and an Advisory team to help make the vision move ahead.

My husband and I are working with several leaders in our home church and community to reach families with a message of hope, starting in the Denver, Colorado area.

In the next 3 months I hope to give you more opportunities to come along side of this new, but needed home based family ministry and tell you more about how close TLC Squared is to launching the following Ministries: Confessions of a Mother’s Heart and Home Care Kits in Fall of 2018.  In the meantime, you can read more about it here!

For now, there are at least two planned fundraisers;  One for this coming October in California and another for the Spring of 2018 in Colorado!

How can you help?

Glad you asked!

We would love it if you would seriously consider how much you can give to TLC Squared to help build a seed fund and grow the ministry! No amount is too small!

TLC Squared Ministries is receiving Tax deductible donations in partnership through the Association of Christian Nonprofits.  To learn more about them click here !

Please don’t hesitate to ask any questions!

Are you ready to be a part of this ministry?  Join us!!

Waiting in Expectation,


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